For one of mybest pal..

Today i dnt have nething in mind to write here.
i was writing some thing lastnite but cudnt finish that..
and thn i constantly have this guilt wth me of annoying one of my best freind for something which was for my own gud....i regret doing tht.........but i cant undo wat i have already done..an wat pains me more is knowing how right my pal was an how wrong i m ..........but thn thr r reasons my reasons for wat i do...n y i dnt do certain things...may be i wud be able to ovr come them, not sleeping for days an days mania is one of those....but till i m not able to..... i just wish to be forgiven for it...sometimes it hurts to know some one arround u care so much for u...sply when u hardly have ne one to care for to look out for u....its scary very scray.....really whn u r not so used to having some one to care for u an all of a sudden u have some one who actually cares it seems a farce....
an now i cant evn make out wot is this.....lol ;p