True love has no end...coz it never ends!!!

Just yesterday I recieved a mail from an old dear friend, pouring his heart out after a failed affair, the hurt he is going through and how much next to impossible it would now be for him to put his trust in this socalled love thing.
And is thankful that it got over for good.
Not that I dint understood what he said or what he dint say, but wanted to say.
He dint spoke a single word that I havent heard between a conflict, my head an heart always have.
But it was the question he asked me that really unnerved me...
"Why our so called perfect love never always have a perfect happy ending?"

After pondering over it for an hour or so I tried my best to console him, tried my best to write him a mail that would in some way be able to sooth his pain. But deep down I myself knew what I wrote to him is not even good enuff to convince me, how could I expect it to be of help to him.
I have been hearing so many times...
our love dint ended the way it should have.
He/She is not the kind of person i expected him/her to be...
We have lost the trust we had...
We are no longger on the same wave lenght...

The only conclusions I get to were that...

"True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"…

Love is such a wonderful gift, and never to be taken for granted. Few people are lucky enough to get the person they love.
We all, by nature, is flawed! It's pointless looking for the perfect person; because such a person doesn't exist on this planet at least! No two people are alike and every single one is imperfect. Everyone has his or her faults and peculiarities. Knowing this then, the only way to make love survive and grow and to enjoy it fully is to accept these faults, while remembering at the same time that we ourselves are nowhere near perfect and are probably as 'defective' as the other person!

Perfect smooth sailing is impossible. And if it's happening, it spells big trouble because it points to the fact that one or both partners are making a hell of a compromise to avoid conflict!

"If a person exits one relationship in the hope of entering into a problem-free one next time, then that's very wishful thinking!"

And never ever love some one in the hope of a fairy tale perfect endding. That dont happen, not anymore, not always.
Yes perfect Love has no ending....cause love is endless.
It simply dont end....

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Wo jo dorr nagar ko jate hain!!

Wo jo dorr nagar ko jate hain,
Phir kab wo laut kar aate hain.
Bilkul tanha kar detein hain,
Saari khushiyan le jatein hain.
Kahan rakhte phir koi khair khabar,
Aise kyun rooth ke jaate hain?
Kabhi yaadon mein,kabhi sapnoo mein...
Aansu ban ke bas jate hain.
Milnay ki bhi koi aas nahi,
Jane kis des ko jate hain?
Wo jo dorr nagar ko jate hain...!!!

*******Ek din*******

Ek din us ki ankhoun mein aks humra ho ga
Ek din ayega,wo shaks humara ho ga......

Tu jis reit pe naam humara likhega,
Wo kisi aur hi darya ka kinara ho ga...

Zindagi! ab ke humara naam na shamil karna,
Garr ye tah hai ke yehi khel dobara ho ga...

Jis ke hone se sanse chala karti thi,
Kis tarha us ke bagair humara guzara ho ga...

Ye achanak jo ujala sa ho jata hai,
Dil ne chupke se naam unka phukara ho ga...

Kaun rota hai yahan raat ke sanatein mein,
Humare jaisa hi koi hijar ka mara ho ga....

Hum ko maloom hai johin hum qadam rakhein ge
Zindagi tera phir koi aur kinara ho ga........

Jo humari rooh main badal se garajte hain kabhi
Us ne bhi seene mein dard koi utara hoga.....

Kaam muskil hai per anjaam deinge ek din,
Johin zindaigi mein phir sukh ka aasara ho ga..

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Circle of friends!!!

Some one today asked me how do u manage so many freinds, I have arround 45 an they are just too much for me....u have more then 360 freinds in your freinds list
Thats an impossible number to keep track of your freinds
And I just smiled giving her my favourite reply........I m lucky to know kind people who are gud freinds...
Though this was not the first time i heard that....and I know it wont be the last time either....
But this time I surely was taken aback by the question as it was asked by some one I least expected...
Yes I M definately the most unfreindliest an cold person....though that doesnt mean I dnt get along very wel with others....but there is this distance I maintain with almost evryone.
So the most one could get outta me is some warm greetings and an even warmer bye ;p
And that would be one of the reasons i was pushed into orkutting ;p
Thus I started thinking that even though i could boost of 100s of frnds in my freinds list but ya sure they are not the one i can bank upon...
Neither are they whom i can call in the middle of the nite just to get reassured...
Nor would they be concerned about all the wrong decisions I make....but yes they would alwayz be there as a gud decoration on the list to boost of a heavey load of freinds I just happen to have...
But that dosent mean I dont have some real friends
I do have few...an now when asked about to name them i just cant evn think of whom to name an whom to leave coz even thuh I luv to be selfish but I just cant be partial to my friends...
So i took a stupid test courtesy a brain dead freind...
Which was list al the freinds on a sheet of paper an randomly start deleting them untill i come across names of friends I really dont want to lose.....
finally i come across these friends whom i guess i would luv to keep for life
And yes i m hating doing this if this wasnt for the tantrum of a devilish friend i guess i wouldnt be writing this......lesson learnt its gud to keep ur blog id saef from devils....bad case for me as she happens to be doing a peek a boo in my mail accounts

1) Adu The Controversial---
Now i m not getting into the nittygritty of it ;p
but ya if it wasnt for her i would have never known,how does it feel to be happy twisting othrs ears an managing a smile ;p
And ofcourse wudnt be writing this 4k post aswell ;p

2)The guy from the lonely road---
We dint met under a very faourable circumstances.I hated him for delibrately pin pointing me for ingnoring him on a thread....and just a few mints from then it was like as if we were two lost freinds from a kumbh ka mela ;p
He has an amazing sense of conectivity, and I m just so touched by his attitude towards life even while in the midst of so much... he still manages a true warm smile.
Alwayz inspiring to be an optimist.
Alwayz there to help....an has been busy lately with some real donkey work for me ;p
Had been the reason for myblogs interesting an beautiful kayapalat ;p
Just few days ago I wasnt able to connect to the blog page an was upset for not being able to publish a post....an even before i could ask him for a favour......BOOM!!! the post was already published...



3)An Angel From N.L
He is such a charming fellow that after having a chat with him chances are u will be stung by the magic of his words.
Though he tried to be a devil in past but guess seeing his angelic bend, the devils disowned him :D
The kind of closeness an friendliness he shows towards all is hard to find.
He has this really amazing sense of humur with lots of wits to acompany it...
And an ability to not to get offened......thts so hard to find
The only person whoz ""hate ya"" I look forward to dearly
hehe
Thuh I hate him for not getting a net connection at his new home...
And ofcourse how cud I fail to mention he hates to have Brad Pitt as his neighbour ;p
Looking forward to a grand treat for his marriage.......yummyyyyyyyyyyyy

4)Brother Lee
The only person who sincerly offered to be a bro....an being more then one.
The kind of faith he has in me an the amount of trust he puts in evry one he knows catches evry one by surprise....
But one hell of a tuffy, if u dare not listen to his advice.
The care he showz makes me think..... he must have been my father in some last births ;p

Once my dad told me that he read some where that by the time u die ...
"if you have, had three real friends you have had a good life"
I already have four an I m not even dead yet..... ;p
Guess I M having a great rocking life!!!


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I will remember him..

As I sit here thinking of all the things I have been through....

Of all the time we have shared together...

Of the love we thought was made in heaven..

I remember him....

I remember him as my friend, my best friend, my only true friend.

He is a very different guy. I cant ask for something better than him. He used to bring out what has to be the best in me. Who used to make me feel so special, so special that I always felt at home when I was with him. Yes he is one in a million.

Infact i was a no one before i met him, was just another ordinary girl with an ordinary present...an it was for the first time in my life that i felt i m not that worthless after all...

I dont know y it all happened and also the reason for it...He brought out what it has to be me. A girl. ..

He has alwayz been a reason for evrything that I do. For every breath that I take, for every tear that I cried for, it’s always him. He is the one I have longed for all of my life.The reason why I feel lost right now. I have always thought that he is the one I have been dreaming of, the man who can change my life into something better, better than anyone can do for me. Who always brought out my world into something great.

I don’t know if there’s something wrong with me. Do the past have something to do with what he can feel towards me right now? I don’t know why he have to do this to me.

He rejected me

I don’t know what would happen next after all of this. Maybe I would just go back of what I am used to be. Maybe I’ll just spend some time to cry and to accept all the things that had happen. Maybe I have to realize that things aren’t the same as I expect it to be. Maybe I should go on with my life without him beside me. Maybe he just can’t love me anymore.maybe I should have a distance from him so that I can forget all these things.

may be......

But may be i no i cant do ne of these

I really love him even though he rejectrd me.

I’ll remember him till my last breath.....

For all the time we spend together

For all the dreams we shared...

For all the laughs we had together...

For all those moments...

I will remember him...

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In the heavens I will wait...

In the final seconds
Before I die
I hope I see you
Eye to eye
No words to speak
No remembrance shared
Just knowing your with me
Would show me you cared.

Then final breath
To heaven I`d soar
Past all indifference
To that far off shore
To put on my wings
To learn a new trade
To be your angel
Til you come my way
Then together we`d fly
Off to the clouds
Which abound heaven.

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It Pains........

It pains to think we may never meet again
Simple really, isn`t it, a word or two and then??
A lifetime of not knowing where or how or why or when,
You think of us or speak of me or wonder what befell,
The someone you once loved not so long ago so well...

Never wonder what I`ll feel as life shuffles by,
You don`t have to ask me and I need not reply.
Every moment of my life from now until I die,
I will think or dream of you and fail to understand.
How a perfect love can be confounded out of hand...

Nothing can be altered, there is nothing to decide
No escape, no change of heart, no place to hide.
You are all I`ll ever want, but this I am denied...
Sometimes in my darkest thoughts,
I wish I`d never learned
What it is to be in love and have that love returned...

Plz God Keep An Eye On My Dad!!!

Give him Spring..
Send him your breath...
Quiet his heart,
Bring him some peace.
Settle his hurt,
Labored in fever,
Battling with pain,
Heaving for life,
Deep from his soul.
Show him belief,
Calling on angels...
Praying to God...
Give him the strength,
To see daylight.
I’m begging you now.
Don’t take him like this..
For the sake of his spirit,
lend him your peace,
Send him your breath,
Quiet his hurt,
Smooth back his hair,
let him smile once more.
I’m crying for him,
I’m crying for me,
I can’t stand to lose him...
Not now, please!
Calling on angels...
Gently rock him to sleep,
Give him these moments,
Give us back that peace,
Ease his pain keep an eye on him.
But do let him live....
Atleast for a while.
Plz God just keep an eye on him...